Balance
I'm sitting criss cross applesauce on my gray couch with a 3 year old snuggled against the crook of my elbow. She's making it hard to type but I don't feel like moving her. It's Sunday and we're quiet around here. There's been pancake making, coffee drinking, advent calendar opening and some drone flying practice.
This year I've worked a lot on building a business and very little on building a life. Which is interesting considering the business was started to help me build a better life. I feel like balance has been my life mantra yet the last few years have been uncannily out of balance. Having babies throws you off. Wanting more for your life makes it hard to enjoy the life you have. Before my business I had time to go to the park, the Children's Museum, to bake cookies and take pictures of my babies with my big camera. But before my business, struggling with depression was constant, my self esteem was wallowing in the carpet with the remains of that morning's breakfast cereal. Obviously, life needs to be lived between those two plains.
I've known that for some months. Bethenny Frankel says, "You can have it all. But you can't have it all at once." I've learned that this year. I think the key now is to decide when to have what. Can I have both a successful business and a happy, free home life in the same week? Do I have to accept that crazy success needs to wait until my babies have grown some more? Because if it's a contest between a successful business and taking good care of my family, I know which one I'll regret giving up in the end. But maybe, it doesn't need to be that dramatic. Maybe, it's possible to have both to a degree, (maybe ever shifting degrees?), with some thoughtful management and well chosen help. That's what I'm going to try this next year. I'll let you know how it goes.
This year I've worked a lot on building a business and very little on building a life. Which is interesting considering the business was started to help me build a better life. I feel like balance has been my life mantra yet the last few years have been uncannily out of balance. Having babies throws you off. Wanting more for your life makes it hard to enjoy the life you have. Before my business I had time to go to the park, the Children's Museum, to bake cookies and take pictures of my babies with my big camera. But before my business, struggling with depression was constant, my self esteem was wallowing in the carpet with the remains of that morning's breakfast cereal. Obviously, life needs to be lived between those two plains.
I've known that for some months. Bethenny Frankel says, "You can have it all. But you can't have it all at once." I've learned that this year. I think the key now is to decide when to have what. Can I have both a successful business and a happy, free home life in the same week? Do I have to accept that crazy success needs to wait until my babies have grown some more? Because if it's a contest between a successful business and taking good care of my family, I know which one I'll regret giving up in the end. But maybe, it doesn't need to be that dramatic. Maybe, it's possible to have both to a degree, (maybe ever shifting degrees?), with some thoughtful management and well chosen help. That's what I'm going to try this next year. I'll let you know how it goes.
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